Your Now is not your Forever

“Your now is not your forever”

I came across these words when i scroll through my facebook posts and all I can say is the message is so powerful.

When you’re in depressed mode, words like these gives you hope. Its like telling you that hey, even though your depressed now doesnt mean that you’ll feel that way forever.

Just try to continue and do your thing, and you’ll see yourself in a better place in the future. For now just hang in there and be strong. If you are in a bad place, just trust the process. You’ll get to where you are because your now is not your forever.

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Gratitude

When you have depression, gratitude can take you a long way.

Im still living in Japan and is depressed but I’m still here. Surviving and even grateful everyday for the food and shelter provided without me working.

I eat food I want, watch movies, read books, and cook food. Its a nice life until your demons say that you need to go to work because you’ve got to achieve something. You’ve got to be more.

But I try to shut these demons down by being kind to myself. I know I can do more and become more but I don’t want to. I just want to be here. To just exist and not prove anyone something. I achieve happiness by just being grateful and I will be for the rest of my days.

Living with the basics, being grateful, and being at peace with yourself is my kind of living. Its way better than success. Success feeds the ego. Happiness doesn’t have to be that way. Gratitude teaches us to be humble and that goes a long way.

I know some people may think that Im lazy. Just eating and not working. But Im concerned with my mental welfare. Being out there makes me want to fall apart sometimes. Im scared of the world people made. Its harsh and I need a kind world for the meantime. Maybe in time I’ll be stronger. I just need to find a strong set of beliefs to fight a mean world outside.

So for now I have to be grateful. Grateful for the food on the table and the entertainment given to me. This made me sane for sometime now. I know life has more in store for me in the future. I just got to be grateful for now until an opportunity comes.

Dont Quit

When things go wrong as they sometimes will;

When the road your trudging seems all uphill;

When the funds are low and the debts are high;

And you want to smile but you have to sigh.

When all is pressing you down a bit-

Rest if you must, but don’t you quit

Success is failure turned inside out;

The silver tint on the clouds of doubt;

And you can never tell how close you are;

It may be near when it seems far.

So stick to the fight when your hardest hit-

Its when things go wrong that you must not quit.

Replay the Victories

When you’re in difficult times and you’re tempted to get down—whether it’s a bad medical report, a relationship problem, or you are struggling in your finances—don’t dwell on the negative and replay over and over all the reasons why things won’t work out and how impossible your situation is. Instead, change the channel. Get the remote control. That’s not the only channel. Start replaying in your mind, like David and Emmitt did, all the times that God helped you, the times God protected you from those accidents, and the times God gave you a promotion even though you weren’t the most qualified. You were disappointed when it seemed doors were closed to you, but looking back now, you know things worked out for the best.

How about the time you lost a loved one? You could have felt defeated. You didn’t think you could make it through. But eventually you felt a peace and a strength like you’ve never felt before. Every one of us has seen the hand of God at work in our lives.

A key to encouraging yourself is to replay your personal trials and accompanying victories. As you remember the great things God has done, faith will fill your heart. Strength and courage will come from the inside. No matter what you’re facing, no matter how difficult it looks, you’ll know deep down, God did not bring me this far to leave me here. If He did it for me in the past, He’ll do it again for me in the future.

Words to Keep me Tough

No matter how successful you are or how many victories you’ve had in the past, sooner or later there will be an opportunity to give up your happiness and become discouraged.

I see too many people who’ve allowed life to wear them down. They once were joyful. They walked with a spring in their steps. They greeted each day with excitement. But over time, they’ve allowed their happiness to give way to heaviness. Just like a dark cloud, it follows them everywhere they go. Unless they learn how to pass the discouragement test, it will keep them from God’s best.

You may face problems and setbacks, but remember, God is still leading the way. He has given us the strength to be where we are with a good attitude. When that discouraging spirit comes knocking on the door, you don’t have to answer. Just say, “No, thanks. I’m keeping my joy. I know God is in control of my life. He will allow me to go where I’m supposed to be.”

There will be opposition on the way to your destiny. It may take longer than you had hoped. It may be more difficult than you’d thought. You can easily feel discouraged and think it will never work out, whatever the challenge might be. But you have to realize, on the other side of that discouragement awaits a new level of your destiny. When you pass the test, there will always be promotion.

If you are to become everything God has created you to be, you must be willing to say, “I have come too far to stop now. It may be tough. It may be taking a long time. I may not understand it, but I do know this: My God is still on the throne, and what He promised, He will bring to pass.” Have a made-up mind, and resolve that no matter what comes your way, no matter how long it takes or how impossible it looks, you are in it for the long haul. You will not lose your passion. You will pass these discouragement tests. Your victory is already on the way.

Defeated

Is anyone here who feels the same way as I do? That when theres nothing to do, she finds herself lonely and in need of someone to talk to. When theres nothing to do, shes scared that the demons in her head will give her something to worry about, something to ruminate that it will end up with an imagination of herself giving up on her dreams and just let the circumstances defeat her.

I find myself at times defeated by my thoughts. But I will suddenly realize its just my head messing with me.

But really. Why does depression becomes so hard to defeat? It will literally take your life in a way the demons wanted to.

I had a hard time imagining myself being happy. But its easy to imagine myself defeated.

Why does it have to be this way?

The False Self

The false self is also called the personality or ego. Some aspects of it are inherited; others are developed through our experiences with family, friends, the culture we live in, our education, and our religious upbringing. Though aspects of the personality may change over the lifetime, the false self tends to become frozen and rigid, full of regret and resentment over missed opportunities. Even when the false self is able to break out of its rut, it usually jumps into another one. A new marriage may repeat the same patterns that doomed the previous one. Giving up smoking often leads to overeating. Is there a way out? Yes, but not through the false self. When we live in the false self, our lives are narrow, confined, and repetitious, although it may take us years to see that pattern emerge. Life is so diverse and diverting that it continually offers “just one more” thing that promises to fulfill us.

Another notable characteristic of the false self is its tendency to judge. Much as we may hate to admit it, judging others feels good, in the short term at least. It gives us a momentary sense of superiority and strength.

~~ from the book What’s It Like Being You

The Waiting

I feel lonely. But I have to fight it. There is tomorrow, a lovely day waiting for me. I have to stop thinking about my loneliness and focus on hope. That there is a bright future for me here. Even though I feel isolated now, I know tomorrow will bring me friends and family that will comfort me. I know everything will turn out fine for me. God will suddenly turn things around and I will be happy. I know in my heart it is true. Even though I felt dark and lonely amidst the sunshine seeping through my windows, laughter will pour in tomorrow and I will be free from darkness and be filled with hope.

Shattered

There will always come a time when something will happen to you and it will shatter you. Hold on. Dont let it bring you down. Cry if you want and release the pain. Pray and pray harder. Trust the process. Eventually you will see yourself in a better place.

Podcasts

I found that podcasts from Chicken Soup for the Soul excites me. Amy Newmark always share excerpts from her book and I am much interested on the topics. Topics such as reclaiming your life, how to stop negative self talk, finding your happiness etc. These subjects are for me and I cant stop buying the books she broadcasts. I found my therapy from her podcasts and books and these is heaven for me. Finally, someone who understands me.