In Pain

Whenever I’m in my pains of depression, I usually read books, talk to somebody, pray or cry. But this time it seems like I had enough of this depression. It literally controls my life. I can’t hold down a job because of it. I’m sick of just taking it in. I can’t have treatment because of the language barrier. It sucks and I can’t do anything about it. What am I going to do? I don’t know where to ask from help. If you can help me. Please do. I don’t know how long can I put up with this.